November 22nd, 1963 - On
that day and in that moment, almost every American, alive and alert,
stopped and cried and wondered what was happening to our world. For the first
time in my life, I had no answer, not a clue as to why that weekend in November
fifty years ago stopped the world and many wished to get off and start over again.
Americans cried just as Cronkite
cried. Coach Ramsay called off practice that weekend and I, dumbfounded,
trudged back to Barry Hall, packed my few belongings in my satchel, and headed
toward 54th and City Avenue.
In those days we traveled by the
thumb. So, I began to exercise that digit on my right hand and headed east toward
the river. Shortly, a beaten, old 1952, faded green pick-up stopped. The door
was thrown open and I hopped in, not really thinking much more could go wrong
on this day. How wrong I was. The only thing which looked and smelled
worse than the truck was the driver. Ugh! Old newspapers, emptied coffee cups,
rusted pipe and broken LP records abounded in this so called vehicle. I actually
was able to blot it all out and just concentrate on the fallen, beloved
President . After all, here I was – seventeen, a freshman in the Jesuit
College, one year out of the Prep, very naive, and now heading for the Olney
section of Philadelphia and my home, and quietly stunned and quite moved by
the event of that afternoon.
All of a sudden, much to my shock,
this wretch driving towards Bala Avenue, out of nowhere, utters a vulgar and
profane slur against our fallen President. And then another, and another, until
finally, I awoke from this nightmare in November, and commanded this person to
“stop the truck … now”. He had wished JFK dead, and as if he had pulled the
trigger from that mail order rifle, I just had to get out of that doomsday machine.
This follow-up event to our world being shattered now wasted me. I just started
walking and thinking. Why do people exist who do evil things, say evil things,
and think evil things? And walk I did, and contemplate the answers to those
puzzling questions. No answers, just onward towards WCAU, and then onto Monument
Avenue and across the Falls River Bridge, the trek started. Through East Falls,
Manayunk, Roxborough, West Germantown. Mount Airy, this sojourn continued a
slow, deliberate pace going nowhere other than home, still searching for
answers. Through East Germantown, Logan, Fern Rock, and finally, Olney, my
home, my dad with some answers, I prayed.
As
I entered our home at 325 West Godfrey Avenue at almost 9 p.m., six-and-a-half
hours after leaving St. Joe’s, my Dad looked up from his usual stance of
reading the now defunct Philadelphia Evening Bulletin and asked me not about the President’s death, nor
about my own brush with a deadened spirit in a dreadful pick-up, but rather why
was I home? This was atypical since usually after a practice I would stay at
St. Joe’s for the weekend practice. Remember, there were no cell phones, in
fact there were very few dimes in my possession that I could make a pay phone
call. I did not call him to tell him anything probably due to shock. Now he was
the shocked one, why was I home? After a long exposition, Dad told me that
there were evil people in our world who just do the wrong thing. It woke me. It
changed me and my world. I aged a lot that weekend and watched
more TV than I would ever have the chance to again. Media was all over
this. It was the birth of constant news.
And answers we got but not, I do believe, the whole story. Hopefully, those answers will someday be found, though many miles will be tread again before their revelation. “And miles to go, before I sleep”, as the poet Robert Frost had written before that other New Englander, JFK, had arrived on the political scene. And Frost had been a part of that Kennedy infusion at his inauguration in the bitter cold of January of 1961. I am reminded of Frost’s words from the same poem, which earmarks for me that awful day with the phrase found at the end of an earlier quatrain:
Between the woods and frozen lake
The darkest evening of the year.
This blog post was written by Mr. Joe Donahue '63, Prep religion teacher.
Bravo, Joe! I was also at SJC, headed from Wesern Civ (Dr. Burton) to freshman math (Vince Costello). Heard it on the late Lou Fante's transistor radio as we walked from Bellarmine to Barbelin. Wound up kneeling on Costello's classroom floor and saying the rosary. Hank L., SJP '63
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